when mind and heart speaks out

1 Feb 2012


i have got what i want. im going to a boarding school. teknik alor star. its a kluster school. alhamdulillah. i have got what i want. this friday is my last day at smk sg besi. i dont give a damn about that school anymore. remember i used to said that something going to happen this february ? remember or not ?

this 18 feb im supposed to fly to korea with my mom, sister, my cousins and some aunties. about 11 people. going there sebab my brother's graduation. so alang alang menyeluk pekasam bia lah sampai ke pangkal lengan. so alang alang pegi korea holiday la kan. i have bought all the stuff for korea. flight tickets, sweater and all. but then since im going to teknik, my mom said I CANT GO. WHAT THE FUCK MAN !!!! SERIOUS SHIT IM PISSING OFF !! SHE PROMISED ME THAT SHE'S GOING TO BRING ME THERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wanna know her reasons ? 1st im supposed to register myself kt teknik 29 jan. but im too late. we didnt check our letterbox and that surat smpai lambat. i opened the letterbox yesterday, 31 jan. means im late 2 days. but then just now my dad go to that teknik and explain everything. so dorg cakap isnin ni datang je. means im still qualified. going to register that school this monday. so means im the last 3rd intake.

then her reason is dah laa masuk sekolah tuh lmbat, then baru sekolah seminggu nk ponteng seminggu for korea. ingt sekolah sendiri ke sesuka hati nk ponteng and all. so i told her laa, ckap la kt that school we have bought the tickets and going there sebab my brother's graduation. still she said ingt dia nk bagi pelajar ponteng ke sebab nk pegi korea je ? bloody hell im pissing offfff !!!!!!! so kalau im not going to korea means that ticket burn jelah. get what i mean ? free free je derma rm1000 below dekat air asia. man im so pissing off.

lepas tuh ada laa setan setan yg menghasut mak aku ni . setan setan tuh makteh aku dengan her daughter. dorg ckp pegi teknik laa. teknik tuh dh laa susah nk dapat sebab sekolah kluster, lgipun korea kan dh pernah pergi. HELL-OO !! last time i went there when i was 12 laa asshole !!! and time pergi sana tk pergi tempat tempat kt sana sangat sebab muaz ada kelas. bullshit aunty and cousin. i hate them soo much because of their asshole attitude. then they like to show off. aku dapat gerenti laa if im not going to korea, dorg balik malaysia sure dorg show off kat aku. gentle aku dapat gerenti. dulu time dorg pergi bandung pon show off mcam mcam kt aku. mcam aku tk pernh pergi bandung pulak -.-' kecohhhhhhhhhhh je asshole tuh.

so guys help me. i dont like this situation. then my mom said kalau nk pergi korea tk payah masuk teknik .WTFWTFWTFWTFWTF. apa kena mengena ?!?!!?!?!? im not leaving teknik. im so going to teknik. that is my future. i wanna go to korea too. eh sumpah pissed off wey !! mana la mak aku dapat idea sekolah tk lepaskan pelajar nk pergi overseas. ticket dh beli kot. lain laa ticket tk beli. pissingg off sialllllllllllll !!!!!!!!!! setan mana laa hasut mak aku ni !!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i told my bro and my sister. my bro called my mom and like pujuk her to bring me along to korea sebab asrama sure akan bagi pelepasan. but then my mom said no sebab dia dh la masuk asrama lambat then nk kelua gi korea. after a week, baru balik asrama. then a week sekolah then cuti balik. cuti school holiday. sure laa sekolah ckp kenapa tk pergi time school holiday kan ? then siapa nk amek and hantar dia smpai kedah ? dh laa sekolah teknik alor star nk masuk susah sebab sekolah cemerlang. - these are what my mom said to my brother. SERIOUS I CRIED WHEN I HEARD THOSEEE THING. sebab she promised me shes going to bring me there sebab hadiah pmr. now what happened ?!?!?!

tkpelaa. im going to teknik first. then im going to ask my teacher. if dia ckp bole, im going to call my parents and ask them to write letter to the pengetua. if they dont want, then im going to talk to pengetua first. bila dia tk percaya then only im going to ask her/him to call my parents. senang kan ? i really really hope i can go sebab i've bought the ticket already kan. takkan nak bazir. i dont like this situation. this is so unfair !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im pissing off.

i beg you guys to pray for me. pleaseeeee . please. im begging you guys. pray for me so i can go there. Ya Allah, allow me to go there please. amin.

29 Jan 2012




today i went to bandar tasik selatan again. 2 days straight! played badminton again. hell yeah such an productive day. played with my buddies. sweating like a pigg -..- oink oink. played badminton for 2 hours and then went to mamak and lepak. then mom fetched me and straight home. these are some of the pictures taken by makhluk mana tah ;



im dancing. yeay yeay. gelak gelak . tuhhh anak buah lee chong wei tuh


hukhuk tired .




27 Jan 2012


CRAP CRAP. THEY'LL BE IN iCARLY ON SEASON 6 !!!!!!!!!! IM SO GONNA MISS IT :((((((((((( thanks dad for unsubscribe those awesome channel especially nicklodeon and disney channel. now im gonna miss all the fun shows. urghhh. is my life suck or suckest ? ...................